regret
2012-03-02 @ 12:10:33
I'm 24 and I feel like I've wasted at least 5 years of my life.
I feel so old and useless.
Now I'm thinking about post graduate studies. Why do I want these things now when it's too late?
There are always some "could haves", "would haves", "should haves". However, time inevitably fades away and I just have to come to terms with the fact that I will never be a brilliant translator, nor a respected professor. I'm not cut out to have PhD although there are many people who think that I do things well, that I'm always prepared, that my desk is neat and tidy and books on my case are in alphabetical order....but truth to be told, I'm in a mess. I stay up late and the next thing I do in the morning is regret it. I have a boyfriend who may as well be my father and I don't even have a driving licence.
I feel so old and useless.
Now I'm thinking about post graduate studies. Why do I want these things now when it's too late?
There are always some "could haves", "would haves", "should haves". However, time inevitably fades away and I just have to come to terms with the fact that I will never be a brilliant translator, nor a respected professor. I'm not cut out to have PhD although there are many people who think that I do things well, that I'm always prepared, that my desk is neat and tidy and books on my case are in alphabetical order....but truth to be told, I'm in a mess. I stay up late and the next thing I do in the morning is regret it. I have a boyfriend who may as well be my father and I don't even have a driving licence.