Everyone wants to be number 1.
2008-02-18 @ 17:37:32
Recently I decided to be a little more ordinary person. I know I'm not a special girl or a super one but Id like to feel closeness to others.

Why does everyone want to feel comparing himself to someone else? Being good doesn’t have any meaning. The most important is just to be better than ‘Jones’. So we don’t want just to be pretty, intelligent or liked. We want to feel prettier, more intelligent, more liked by others than your neighbor, workmate or a classmate. Being number one is great but number two or three isn’t so satisfying. If you’re 2nd or 3rd it means that you’re ‘worse’ than somebody and sometimes it is better to be sixty-fifth. Then, instead of thinking of you as ‘a worse’ you’ll appear as a just ordinary person. And maybe this is the best way to go?

Recently I decided I want to follow exactly this way – and to be just the normal girl. With different plans than you have, big ambitions but still – to stay normal. Not to pretend anyone, not to kill myself to achieve something to realize someone else’s dream, not to wear gold and silver clothes so I can attract a lot of attention. Not to be under the pressure of the crowd or the society that’s watching you carefully. Not to want impress my surrounding by wearing sophisticated clothes, driving an expensive car and living in an luxurious house. All of this have a great meaning, it surely does, but only when you do it for yourself.

I know someone very special. Since I met him I’ve known he is special. He’s very handsome, intelligent, sporty and finishes a very good studies. He may even get a scholarship this year. And lately I found out his secret to be such a successful student, sportsman and a friend. It is so simple… During our last conversation we talked a little about future. I told him he was to have a great job and life because he was a great person. Then he told me ‘It’s not true. I’m just and ordinary guy’. And the I understood – being ordinary may mean living luckily in harmony with yourself and it it the best. Being natural, not plastic or false.

And so,
Not everyone wants to be number 1.

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From the diary of a vain girl
2008-02-18 @ 16:04:56
I don't know what you boys see in me or what you like me for but please stop being always around me! It's disturbing me. There's a song by Paris Hilton(unfortunately be her) with the words fitting my situation or just my subjective feelings "All the boyz all the silly boyz they want to fight over me".
What the hell?! On the one hand it is great to be liked and fancied. I enjoyed it for some time but now I’ve got to focus on some more important things than them and it’s a bit more difficult when they’re EVERYWHERE and ALL THE TIME. Gosh… Give me some space! They’re sending me sms or gg messages all the time. It's sometimes annoying and sometimes tiring… Dont' you understand what 'no' means?

I like guys but they’re not a priority to me. I know that if I didn’t have any boy who would want to look at me I’d be depressed but this is a little too much to me. Honestly…

Yes, I know I’m overdoing but today is a day when one of my, so called ‘friends’(a male one) is humiliating himself in front of me just to talk to me and probably meet and I feel sorry to see that.

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