Our desires
2009-03-25 @ 06:48:42
I'm angry and hungry. I drunk too much alcohol last Saturday. Behind window the weather is depressing. Maybe, I have a starvation ? Alcohol's starvation? Fate gived me a "white logic".I try get up, waking up but I felling very bad. I sad and lonely. My partner is rather faraway and conceited. She is fighing for a woman rights in our house. I will be fighting for a right for me. My dreaming, leisure time and about my happiness. I wrong for her. She's not love me. The last kiss was a very long ago. Sex in my marriage is absent. When I'm reading my colleagues blogs about sad loves them ,I thing that Buddha had a right says: Our instinct , desire couse our pain; it's a spring of our problems.I have to back to philosophy zen. Zen as like as stoicysm philosophy. I have a too much disire today. 