the third post today
2007-10-22 @ 23:10:23
Ive just taken a bath so I feel good:)
The łukasz has just gone I mean my sister is giving him a lift. And my family slowly is going to bed so Im going too:)
I promised myself I will read the book but I dont even started it, still is going about the time as I noticed it on my previous post. There's a problem - my mum is ill too:( we are both ill, its good my nephiew is healthy at least.
About the weather:
Its cold, and windy and there's no sun:( from time to time is raining and we are not feel good, what is more here is cloudy:( And when the first snow was falling my nephiew said he will do many snowmen:)He said he will need some stones and some carrots to do a nose:)He is very smart boy.
About my plan for tpomorow:
OH, nth special, like usual, but I'll try to take this book witrh my hands, maybe I'll start read it tomorow(?). I suppose I will have to help my mum with carrying after nephiew, of course it will be writing in English, what else..., Ill do some cleaning in my bags:)I have got there almost a milion unnecesary things which make my bag carry and big.I'll do this tomorow couse Ive never had free time to do it and that make me really angry with myself.
About my room:
Im a little sorry because my tv set is broken down and I cant watch it:(I dont often watch tv but from tim to time I wish to see sth or I like asleeping by watching tv.
Now Im listening a romantic song who is done by a German singer, very slowly and my sister told me that he sings for his lover.
Lately I think (I dont want to do this but there's against of my mind) about going abroad, I still dreaming about beautiful future abroad, I know its stupied, but the planes which I had, I believed it strongly, I wanted it so hard, I still think about it, about how it could be beautiful, how it could be make us happy, Im sorry again:((Why are things like this?Why are that? There would wait for us nice well-paid job, our leaving, our lives, our future and now is nth. I think this is the main reason of my psychic health. Every time I think about that, about abroad I feel depressed, I feel sorry, I want to cry, I feel so sorry, I didnt want to that situation.Inside me there are so many bad feelings, so many pity, so many regret, I let down of my friend,of my boy.Yes, I let down:(i think Ive never agreed with ih, I will remeber this situation to the rest of my life...I let him down...I trusted, I believed, I wanted so hearty...Yes, I let him down.And its still hurt.
I dont know what to say yet...there are so many regret...
I know I should forget about the past and think about the future but I cant. There are perhaps people who forget very soon about this kind of things but IM too sensitive, Im too wick, I wont forget.I know it isnt helpful but I can do nth in this issue. Im as Im and that's it.
Only I can do is trying, trying and trying to think positive, think about nice things, nice people, nice events which are still before me.
Take care yourself
We are in touch:)
We will see tomorow
so sweet dreams
The łukasz has just gone I mean my sister is giving him a lift. And my family slowly is going to bed so Im going too:)
I promised myself I will read the book but I dont even started it, still is going about the time as I noticed it on my previous post. There's a problem - my mum is ill too:( we are both ill, its good my nephiew is healthy at least.
About the weather:
Its cold, and windy and there's no sun:( from time to time is raining and we are not feel good, what is more here is cloudy:( And when the first snow was falling my nephiew said he will do many snowmen:)He said he will need some stones and some carrots to do a nose:)He is very smart boy.
About my plan for tpomorow:
OH, nth special, like usual, but I'll try to take this book witrh my hands, maybe I'll start read it tomorow(?). I suppose I will have to help my mum with carrying after nephiew, of course it will be writing in English, what else..., Ill do some cleaning in my bags:)I have got there almost a milion unnecesary things which make my bag carry and big.I'll do this tomorow couse Ive never had free time to do it and that make me really angry with myself.
About my room:
Im a little sorry because my tv set is broken down and I cant watch it:(I dont often watch tv but from tim to time I wish to see sth or I like asleeping by watching tv.
Now Im listening a romantic song who is done by a German singer, very slowly and my sister told me that he sings for his lover.
Lately I think (I dont want to do this but there's against of my mind) about going abroad, I still dreaming about beautiful future abroad, I know its stupied, but the planes which I had, I believed it strongly, I wanted it so hard, I still think about it, about how it could be beautiful, how it could be make us happy, Im sorry again:((Why are things like this?Why are that? There would wait for us nice well-paid job, our leaving, our lives, our future and now is nth. I think this is the main reason of my psychic health. Every time I think about that, about abroad I feel depressed, I feel sorry, I want to cry, I feel so sorry, I didnt want to that situation.Inside me there are so many bad feelings, so many pity, so many regret, I let down of my friend,of my boy.Yes, I let down:(i think Ive never agreed with ih, I will remeber this situation to the rest of my life...I let him down...I trusted, I believed, I wanted so hearty...Yes, I let him down.And its still hurt.
I dont know what to say yet...there are so many regret...
I know I should forget about the past and think about the future but I cant. There are perhaps people who forget very soon about this kind of things but IM too sensitive, Im too wick, I wont forget.I know it isnt helpful but I can do nth in this issue. Im as Im and that's it.
Only I can do is trying, trying and trying to think positive, think about nice things, nice people, nice events which are still before me.
Take care yourself
We are in touch:)
We will see tomorow
so sweet dreams