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2007-09-04 @ 20:42:16
Now is the evening, outside is darkness, here is cold and rainy and I dont know what I will be doing for a while??hmmm
Maybe I'll read some book? Unfortunately I havent done this for a long long time:(so maybe this is a good idea? Lately I dont want to watch tv, even if there's a new series of "L like love". A few minute ago I prepared some clothes to work for yesterday couse Im a working person. Probably most of you have started school for Monday as not like me:(Yes Im a bit elder than you and I finished my school some time ago. My brother has gone to new school, I mean a secondary school. You know new environtment, new school mates, new girls, new subjects, every is new for him. He has commuted to school.Sometimes I wish to be younger. I imagine I would chose another life way, another school, another studies...Sometimes Im so sad of it, Im angry with myself!Its my life and I think sometimes as sth better has gone forever and never will be return:(I know its my fault, I know its my chose only if these not good:(But lately I think a lot of my life, I was asking myself if Im a happy person, if I have an enjoy life and etc...What Im really doing with my life?Im not feel good, and also I have had some problems with my family, with my boyfriend. I thought Im a dreamer and I accused all world for my mistakes, my faults, my choses...And I will take a decision, I have to change my life to be happy, to alive from all my heart. Firstly I register to psychiatrist:)Yes,its sounds not good, but I need to this very much, I hope he will help me, I hope he will tell me how to live, how to take good choses, how to be happy. I miss sense of my life, I dont know what Im living for, what for?Im so lost. Now Im realised that my plan for tomorrow will probably not be good, I registered to ride horses, I mean I want to learn ride. I have ridden horses maybe a three times in my life, and lately I was so depressed, so misearable, so nervous and I thought this could be a good idea to ride horses. But outside its rainig all day today and tomorrow will be probably the same:(I want to hav a skill of ride horses. In this note is probably or rather surly a lot of mistakes but I dont care about it. I have a purpose to know English so I have to learn and learn, write and write in English and eventually there will be the day, when I'll speak English very well, as well as a native speaker. I know it will be someday:)oh, I dont know what to say for today yet?...I was thinking for a while and I thoght nth so I will be finish I guess.
byebyebyebyebyeybeybebyeyeybeyeybeeeeeeee
Maybe I'll read some book? Unfortunately I havent done this for a long long time:(so maybe this is a good idea? Lately I dont want to watch tv, even if there's a new series of "L like love". A few minute ago I prepared some clothes to work for yesterday couse Im a working person. Probably most of you have started school for Monday as not like me:(Yes Im a bit elder than you and I finished my school some time ago. My brother has gone to new school, I mean a secondary school. You know new environtment, new school mates, new girls, new subjects, every is new for him. He has commuted to school.Sometimes I wish to be younger. I imagine I would chose another life way, another school, another studies...Sometimes Im so sad of it, Im angry with myself!Its my life and I think sometimes as sth better has gone forever and never will be return:(I know its my fault, I know its my chose only if these not good:(But lately I think a lot of my life, I was asking myself if Im a happy person, if I have an enjoy life and etc...What Im really doing with my life?Im not feel good, and also I have had some problems with my family, with my boyfriend. I thought Im a dreamer and I accused all world for my mistakes, my faults, my choses...And I will take a decision, I have to change my life to be happy, to alive from all my heart. Firstly I register to psychiatrist:)Yes,its sounds not good, but I need to this very much, I hope he will help me, I hope he will tell me how to live, how to take good choses, how to be happy. I miss sense of my life, I dont know what Im living for, what for?Im so lost. Now Im realised that my plan for tomorrow will probably not be good, I registered to ride horses, I mean I want to learn ride. I have ridden horses maybe a three times in my life, and lately I was so depressed, so misearable, so nervous and I thought this could be a good idea to ride horses. But outside its rainig all day today and tomorrow will be probably the same:(I want to hav a skill of ride horses. In this note is probably or rather surly a lot of mistakes but I dont care about it. I have a purpose to know English so I have to learn and learn, write and write in English and eventually there will be the day, when I'll speak English very well, as well as a native speaker. I know it will be someday:)oh, I dont know what to say for today yet?...I was thinking for a while and I thoght nth so I will be finish I guess.
byebyebyebyebyeybeybebyeyeybeyeybeeeeeeee