love hurts.
2009-03-16 @ 23:40:18
I'm scared. There are so many things I want to remove from my mind. I can't, no matter how hard I try. It's been almost 1,5 year and I still remember everything just like at the beginning. I didn't believe in love. I used to think, that love is only in books and movies, that everyone is an egoist, and no one cares about anyone. I thought that love's overrated. I was wrong, totally wrong. Nowadays... I can't pick up the pieces of myself. Even if everything is finished, even if it WAS finished 1,5 year ago. Sometimes I think that when I'll be old and dying, I'll die with his picture in my hand. What am I supposed to do? If he could only smile to me, just once, I'd be the happiest girl in the world, but he hates me for some stupid reason. He could stop acting like a child, seriously. He's an adult, but he's behaving like an 16 years old boy. He doesn't want to listen, he doesn't want to tell me what's wrong, he does everything to make me cry, but when he sees me, he pretends like he doesn't know me. There's nothing I won't do to forget about him. I just can't take it anymore. I'm glad I'll move out in August. I won't see his face again. It's good, but... Why do I want to stay? Foolish me.