better way, better life... but before - tough call.
2009-06-06 @ 03:05:58
I wrote CV in english. my boyfriend didn't spot any errors... uhh ;) maybe I am truly better ;) joke... but I really believe, that it is a matter of time.
Bart, my darling, has said today, that he can't last out without me... I wanted to cry... I miss him so much... I want to hug him, kiss him... everything, but with him!!!! sometimes everything is so difficult... I am here alone... every day is harder... I miss more day by day... sometimes I cry... I can to tell him this things, I know that he would to more worried, can think that he gives me more suffer, less love and happiness... I don't want to his anguish... I'd rather to suffer secretly...
I'm not be able to change my life, I can't to stand out from everything what I have here. It's difficult to venture... I'm afraid, that I may regret, and I don't want. I would behave in line with my dreams... but fucking pain don't admit of it!!
some rules for me? how to dare and fix on better way...?
Bart, my darling, has said today, that he can't last out without me... I wanted to cry... I miss him so much... I want to hug him, kiss him... everything, but with him!!!! sometimes everything is so difficult... I am here alone... every day is harder... I miss more day by day... sometimes I cry... I can to tell him this things, I know that he would to more worried, can think that he gives me more suffer, less love and happiness... I don't want to his anguish... I'd rather to suffer secretly...
I'm not be able to change my life, I can't to stand out from everything what I have here. It's difficult to venture... I'm afraid, that I may regret, and I don't want. I would behave in line with my dreams... but fucking pain don't admit of it!!
some rules for me? how to dare and fix on better way...?