still lonely and still waiting...but still happy:)
2009-05-20 @ 08:53:30
You know what? I need to tell You something. I have never had a real boyfriend...I've had some boys, but that was so childish...and that was a long time ago, last was last year ;]. And now I'm thinking if is the real love in this world? and am i gonna find it? hmm...of what i see i can say that there is no love in this world. Man want only sex and georgeous woman...and money ehh:) but, who doesn't want to have many?:P I think boys aren't able to love...
now I have a hard and black cloud in my head:( my best friend meets a boy that has got a really fine friends. But she is very special and nice and really beautiful and everyone says it to her at every moment. And i think they don't like me , because i am usual. But i really liked one boy from this group. He isn't much handsome, but he's got something what I like:-) but there is a one problem... he doesn't like me... I see it. And it might seems so easy and childish, but i haven't felt something like this for a long time. What to do to make him closer to me? ;( ehh don't tell me leave it, shit happens. Because I've known it for all my life and now i want to change it all! I'm not as cruel as everyone thinks! Maybe i'm not pretty, but I'm fine and clever and I'm interested in a lot of things :-) ehhh life doesn't like me...
now I have a hard and black cloud in my head:( my best friend meets a boy that has got a really fine friends. But she is very special and nice and really beautiful and everyone says it to her at every moment. And i think they don't like me , because i am usual. But i really liked one boy from this group. He isn't much handsome, but he's got something what I like:-) but there is a one problem... he doesn't like me... I see it. And it might seems so easy and childish, but i haven't felt something like this for a long time. What to do to make him closer to me? ;( ehh don't tell me leave it, shit happens. Because I've known it for all my life and now i want to change it all! I'm not as cruel as everyone thinks! Maybe i'm not pretty, but I'm fine and clever and I'm interested in a lot of things :-) ehhh life doesn't like me...