I'm schoolgirl again.
2017-09-17 @ 14:21:59
Hello Again!
I don’t know where to start. My week wasn’t anything special, but I want update that blog regullary.
I decited to came back to school. Many people said it’s a good choice. Somewhat I feel like it too, but I still don’t feel close to that people there. Some of the kids in the class makes me like I don’t know how to act around them, cause some of them are deeply mentally disabled.
Uncomfy feeling.
But from the other side, there are kids that act almost „normal people” but anyway I still don’t feel connection with them. Only one things they are talking about are polish tv series and disco polo music ( disco polo is polsh version of italo disco). Teachers want us to do many things as possible. They play in eurobussnes with us when we are waiting for the schoolbus, they wanna to take us to swimpool. We were on filed trip in forest, but it wasn’t anything special. The road was too hard to go for me. In the end I had to wait for the rest in the halfway.
It was so cold and I was so angry that I have to wait for other when there were so cold! An they didn’t even find any muhrooms, only some old leaves and dead mouse. In the last weeks, only we,the girls group had working practise in wedding palace, and I really prefer it that way. I know I sound mean but there is better without boys in the class, no drama, no stupid jokes, and there is no B-kun who is always looking with me with the creepy look…
When our girlsgroup was on the wedding palace we did the basic cake. I wonder how it taste, beacuse we didin’t have chance to eat it. We were on the walk, we vistited park and we ate snacks. It was fun even when girls were talking about tv series.
Tomorrow I will have test. It will be about family members relationships. I feel like I’m in primary school again,
Anyway I have to bring my family photos as well.
I have no will to go to that school, but I have no will to spend all my time in house
Tomorrow teachers will give us our texbooks and maybe uniforms as well. I saw a peek of my uniforms. It was when other teacher who is friend one of my teacher came in the class and she opened all lockers in the classroom. Uniforms look kinda like japanese blazer uniforms. One of our teachers also gave us some cheap toy-like rings. It was nice, but I lost mine in the schoolbus, so I was a bit sad. The same teacher also said that she dosen’t want her student to invite her on facebook, but the other day I saw her profile and she apcceted all the students from our class, but not me, lol.
One of my classmates texted me on facebook. He never talked to me in the school, but on facebook he asked me if he should break up with his girfriend when he likes another girl. I can’t take him serious, beacuse he is the playboy type, and he change girfriend in every week.
I can’t help, but I can’t feel close to my classmates, I don’t even know If I want to be close to then…
I only close to to my internet peers and my therapists from the camp.
I started to think about J-kun more. But not in romantic way! He is so nice, such a gentelman, ha cares even me, he even texted me on facebook between camps. I’m not sure if I will go there again and it makes me sad.
But having crush in J-kun would be only a little bit less hurting than having crush on D-kun. J-kun has a girlfriend, he still is my therapist and he is like 8 years older than me.
My Neice, Jul-chan was born. I d’d like to see her but my mom says is not the time yet. I only saw her on photo and she looks more like my sister-in-law than my brother. Anyway she looks cute.
I guess I will end here for today. Thats my boring life!